Stay Ourselves Upon the God of Israel

I felt such a beautiful Spirit as I studied 1 Nephi 20 today (compares with Isaiah 48). 

Verse 2 has this phrase, "stay themselves upon the God of Israel, who is the Lord of Hosts . . ."

It was saying that people of the House of Israel would "call themselves of the holy city (Jerusalem), but they would not stay themselves upon the God of Israel."

Couldn't we, today, fall into this same problem?

I want to stay myself upon God.

I've been sick for the past week, and life doesn't feel easy today.  Yesterday was amazing.  I felt healthy for several hours, we went on a bike ride, I got to spend time with Eric, and I didn't feel stressed at all.  It was beautiful.

But today I have a headache and two of my children have been squabbling all morning (one is back in the bedroom for the second time), and I wonder if I'm teaching what I should be teaching--or if I'm living as I should be living--or if there's any hope for me.  We have guests coming over in about an hour, and I have some Power of Moms work that needs to get done--and I need to shower and get ready and clean up the house and get the kids settled, and I just feel overwhelmed.

Of COURSE the Grace of God is the only solution.  That is the only way that we can be saved.  And I know His Grace makes up for where I lack.  He knows I'm imperfect, but that's okay.  He wants me to try.  To accept His offering.  To rely on His Grace.

Verse 10 says, "I have refined thee, I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction."  And verse 11 says that He does this for His own sake.  He doesn't want His name polluted.

I want these challenging times to refine me, but the only way I can do that is to stay myself on Him.

I need to pray with more faith.  Turn to Him when I am worried.  And allow Him to teach me.